Paranoid much?

Sooo, planning a trip with a group of friends and none of them answer to my latest question. Ok I understand, there's no rush but still, rude! Tell them about a random happening in town and everyone instantly has a discussion... A couple days later say something else about the trip aaand nothing... Is it me? Do you suddenly hate me or what?

A couple of passive aggressive posts of local culture etc. later it finally turns out the problem is me. I'm just not seeing their messages. -.-

I've had this for a couple of months now :( I think my friends are ignoring me and they think I'm ignoring them. All because of fb. The worst part is you never know when it happens, because sometimes people do ignore certain things :D and me myself don't always answer :D So after a couple of days I cautiously ask whether they've answered or not. Quite awkward when the initial question was something like you want to go out tomorrow etc :D Getting the answer 3 days later is a bit late.

I've even moved back to stone age and only use fb on my computer. At first I thought that having messenger open pretty much all the time in every device is the problem but now I literally can't get rid of any more apps. Tried everything, emptied cookies, even turned the computer off and on again :D I guess we'll just have to wait and see...

I live in constant fear that someone wants to be my friend but I'm just ignoring them...

Ttyl ;)

Jazzz...

Under the sun

As I have mentioned before I went to a holiday in Dubai. As it was more of a culture trip than lying on the beach getting some sun it was absolutely amazing. Would go back anytime! Shame the 7 days passed by so quickly tho! Saw all the major sights, Burj Khalifa, Burj al Arab, the world's biggest shopping centre etc. 

Anyhow, not gonna talk about the sights, as everyone can read about them online or go and see themselves. What I wanted to write about are the things that left me puzzled. 

Firstly, why on earth do people go on a tourism trip which includes sightseeing if they complain about walking? Like seriously, if you wanna sit down all day then take the package that only has hotel and you can lie next to the pool or go to the beach. You seriously didn't expect that when we do some sightseeing you wouldn't have to walk 50 meters? So during the longer days people were complaining and complaining and .... complaining. And I'm not trying to be mean, but if your physical shape is not fit enough for a trip like that maybe you would be better off staying at home.

Secondly, people taking pictures constantly, and when I say constantly I mean constantly. One lady literally experienced the trip through her camera. I might be weird, but who is going to watch all those pictures? And she kept taking pictures through the bus window even when they came out crap, like why? And what is the point of taking 10 pictures of the same thing? If you get a good one, stop it! Enjoy the present and the atmosphere.

And the thing that left me absolutely amazed: safari day. The cars had 6 spaces, so I was in one car with random people, of who 2 were just on their own and one family with a young child, about 7ish I think. One single guy sat in the front next to the driver, one single woman in the middle row and then the mum and dad and I was left in the back with the child. Now, I like children, but hey, I did not pay to babysit a stranger's child for a day. The mum sat in the middle so she could take pictures of everything. And the funniest thing, the driver asked who speaks English, silence, as I was at the back with all the noise I didn't really hear so asked what did he ask and said that I can. So he talked in English and everyone understood most parts, but there were things they didn't and wanted me to translate - translate what, if I can't hear it to the back of the car? So then we had a short stop and I asked if I could change seats with the mum or dad so that I could hear the driver and translate if needed. Heeeelllll no, the mum wanted to take pictures and as the dad was foreigner he claimed not to understand the driver so refused to sit at the back -.- Finally made it to the safari and those who don't know, it's crazy, you just hold on the the car as driver rallys there so guess what happened! The girl became scared and clinged to me, like literally, squeezing my arm to hold on. And the mum, ofc, was taking pictures, while saying that nothing comes out as the drive was bumpy as hell. So why on earth do you keep taking the pictures if they are useless? I was literally blown away of their behaviour. Was it really too much to ask and think that a parent should sit by their young child?

One funny things too: at the top of the Burj Khalifa as I was wandering around on my own, at some point I heard a guy saying something but as he was with his friend I assumed they were talking to each other. Then realised that the guy asked to take a picture with me, because he thought I'm beautiful and liked me. Needless to say, I was surprised, but agreed, because, why not? If that makes someone happy, right? But then he asked if I want a selfie with my phone and I refused, because I was still surprised and didn't know what to do, so kinda panicked :D but also had an old phone that wasn't really meant for selfies. later regretted my decision tho, as it would have been a interesting story to tell :)

So to the guy, who took a picture with me on top of the Burj Khalifa, feel free to share the photo with me :P

By the way, I love shoes so left one suitcase almost empty hoping the biggest shopping centre would be a shoe heaven and I will find loads of nice ones. I did not :D bought two bags instead :D

Overall, the trip was lovely, enjoyed the nice weather and the people! So nice to discover another culture :) Expo will be in Dubai soon, so should go back at some point, as it develops so quickly there - would be interesting to see what has changed.

Ems

Playlist

This time is really hard as haven't found any new music that I like to be honest :( Not even listening to my ipod that much any more :O walks in silence... wow...

Anyway since I didn't pick an Estonian song last time I'll make up for it by putting only Estonian songs this time (Eurovision selection time :D)

Only heard a snippet of the woman's part while in Estonia and loved it immediately.

Genka ft Paul Oja - Kõik

A remix of a great song that has been haunting me for a while now

Liis Lemsalu - Sunflowers

Not sure if I like this song or not :D It's really interesting though

Jüri Pootsman - Aga siis

And my favourite from Eesti Laul:

Laura - Supersonic

And another good song that didn't get through

Würffel - Facing north

Ttyl ;)

Jazzz...

No time to panic!

Had a dentist appointment last week, just for a regular check up as I'm one of the "lucky" ones who every now and again gets holes in my teeth. So the sooner they get discovered, the better. As I was asked if I complain about anything I mentioned that one wisdom tooth causes a bit trouble sometimes as in makes me unable to open my mouth properly or eat normally. So there I am, sat in the dentist chair and she has a look and says, yeah, this one can be pulled out, so let's do it straight away! Eeee, excuse me, did I hear that right? Straight away as in now, as in right now, wait a minute, I am so not prepared for this, crap! FYI, haven't had a tooth pulled out before. But like she said, I have only 5 minutes to worry whereas others have to wait months in the queue, so hey ho, let's look at the bright side :D

It actually wasn't as bad as I thought, thanks to the injection of course :) Now I just have to wait for it to heal and while doing that I have the perfect excuse to dig in into some ice-cream.

Ems

In or out the box?

Everyone always says think outside the box to be unique and creative. Now that's been taken to another level and been developed into a mindset: in this moment of time are you in or outside the box?

In order to truly know this you are required to reflect on yourself and current mood. In the moment can you describe your mood with mainly positive or negative adjectives? In a very simplified way this is giving you the answer: in the box you feel trapped, scared, can't see or hear anything (rage for example when you are blindly focused only on one thing) etc; and out the box you are purposeful, focused (can see and hear and take into account all sides) and responsive.

Who cares? Well this is good for getting to know yourself as there are always two ways to respond to the situation. Both may get you the result but just in a different way. Neither is absolutely right or wrong but it's your attitude that chooses if you're in or out the box :) Knowing this might stop you from cracking under pressure (most of the time stress is just made up in our head - it's not really a life or death situation) and being more effective, it might stop you blindly shouting at someone for not turning up for work etc. before even giving them the chance to explain.

Mind you this doesn't mean that being in the box is always 100% bad thing and you have to avoid it at all costs. We tend to go in and out all the time without even realizing it ourselves. This term is only meant to make you think: Am I in a good frame of mind to undertake this activity/ make this decision etc.

I learnt about this on a two day management course and at first I was totally in the box: new situation, having to talk about my feelings and what stresses me out at work in front of a group of strangers... Wayyyy out of my comfort zone and I normally shut down and talk as little as possible. But by the end of the second day I was starting to embrace it, shouted out my thoughts too and after the feedback round I left with a huge smile on my face and felt really light and relieved. I survived :) And I do hope to not forget this and use it once in a while :)

So what puts me in the box at work

• Freaking polish woman not getting all her jobs done and then blaming the cashier and others for not helping etc. The one that broke me was when she said the morning staff should work the backup milk before the delivery. Company policy says I only have 15 minutes to put everything in the fridge so do you really think I have the time to start doing your job too? When you work the milk last thing at night we won't be having the problem of newer stock out while older stock is in the back. Your freaking job!!!!!! So I explained nicely :) a week went by and another note about it: Can you tell morning staff to.... NO!
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• That same woman wants to go into management but dude! you can't even perform supervisory duties perfectly. And it's not like she can't as such but she won't or I don't even know why. Because she always says yes I want to improve etc. But at the same time she has a bad attitude and tries to get away with doing as little as possible. I don't know, it's hard to explain but it does my head in.
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• Then we have this other guy who is officially number three now (oooh yeah fancy rankings we've got) and he's the opposite of the Polish woman. He tries and tries so hard but he just fails. At tidying up mainly. He does work all the stock perfectly but the back is always in a stupid mess. Like why??? Just stack things a bit better please! It's not that hard. You can see when it's messy and when not. The Pole even made a sly comment: "Did you enjoy the messy backroom he left". F you at least he can work stock! Yes I hate people.
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• And what put me in a box today: I freaking counted the beers yesterday and somehow managed to forget to put it through making my work pointless and someone else having to recount them quickly... FUUUUUDGE. It's a stupid stupid mistake, but like why????? What is wrong with me? I actually was very proud of getting everything done yesterday :D

Fun times :)

Ttyl ;)

Jazzz...

Tv series

This is what I watch :D I'm laughing because it's quite sad. There's so many of them as well so I won't go into detail and only say a couple of words :D

Trollied

This is a new find of Uk comedy and I think it grows on you. Started watching from the last season and then found the whole box set. Must say the first seasons are better + plus there's this kind of stupid guy who got fired (because he is useless) and that really broke my heart!!!

Scream Queens

This show is brilliant in it's ridiculousness. And I really love Emma Roberts.

Can't Pay? We'll take it away

Bailiffs come to collect payments, kick you out of the house etc. Quite interesting to see how these situation play out and what people are capable of coming up with just to delay the payment.

Gogglebox

Ordinary people comment on that weeks tv shows. Simples

Vampire Diaries

The last season has gotten better :) I think I watched the last couple seasons just because I used to like it and it wasn't bad + I had time :D but now. new interesting people oooooh :)

Originals

100% better than the Vampire Diaries!!! I really love the characters here.

Modern Family

I wish I had a family like this :D

Bring the Noise

Trying to sing the song backwards in order for that to be played backwards to guess the song! Need I say more?

Real Housewives

This I think is my fave tv-show :D I freaking LOVE Lisa Vanderpump and her house omfg!!! I want that house!!! and the swans obvs ;)

Shahs of Sunset

A fairly new find and I can't believe how much these friends actually screw one another over, have massive fights with low blows and then still are besties a little bit later (months later in some cases). Not sure how to feel about it.

Little Women

Devious Maids

The Powell family is the real star of this show imho :D

Mob Wives

I fell in love to the way they talk. That's real mob man! I could listen to them ramble on about anything all day. Especially the second from right. 

Vandepump rules

Lisa Vanderpumps own show. Unfortunately it's more about her staff but still you get a glimpse of her glamour life :D

Dance Moms

I think I don't have enough drama in my life :D Because I don't really care about the dances in this show... If you know what I mean :D

Walking Dead

I think this is the only proper acceptable show in my list :D

Welcome to my life :D

I still don't have enough things to watch though :D

Ttyl ;)

Jazzz...